Facing the Giants

WOW - it has been so long again. I thought I would be better this year at blogging, but I found I am not so good. So much has been on my mind this year, and I am trying to deal with it. We have been super busy and I am only 2 1/2 quarters away from finally getting my degree.

I moved to Facebook from Myspace and I like it a lot better now. I don't share my thoughts/feelings like I would here, but I have reconnected with several old friends and have met many new friends through my wonderful church family. I love them all!

I am, dare I say, OBSESSED with reading Blogs here on Blogger. I follow several families who have gone through adoption and I love seeing the memories they are making for these children. I follow families who have lost their babies, or nearly lost their baby, and I am in awe of a young woman who has moved to another country to care for 13 children....all in the name of God! I don't know how or why I have been led to these posts, but I do know, I can sit here for hours and read and cry for people I only know through the grace of God. I try to break myself of the habit of checking it every day, but each day I find myself back there waiting for an update. Holding my breath waiting to make sure they are okay. I can only believe there is a reason for my manic obsession with following these lives....I think God is preparing me, preparing my heart for change????

JC has been out of work now since May and we have been making it but have wiped out our savings now. Now I feel I have reached panic mode. We have gone to see one of the free government counselors to try to save our home, but I fear it won't work in our favor. We have resigned ourselves that we may lose the house....and I am OKAY with that. We won't take this home with us to Heaven, so in the long scheme of things, it doesn't matter....but my brain doesn't listen to my rationalisations most of the time....and my heart aches to think we will have to leave this house that we have worked so hard to keep...then I think why should we keep fighting?? We are in over our heads....lets get out of it, start fresh...start brand new with just a rent payment. Rent would save us about $1400 a month....and when I see those numbers, I feel a sigh of relief....I have been confused and scared and worried for nothing, because God knows what is going to happen. He knows what will happen and when it will happen. His timing is correct, not mine! I did find it ironic that I opened a magazine tonight to an article about living in a smaller space. YES, we will have to sell/give away alot of our stuff. YES, we will have probably 1/2 the space we have now. YES, we will have to get accustomed to a smaller living space. YES, we can do it! WE WILL BE OKAY!

We watched Facing the Giants tonight and it was JUST what I needed to hear. I am facing the biggest giants I have ever faced right now, but I am going to 'plant the field and get ready for the rain'. I am going to keep working hard and whatever happens, I will know we did it for the glory of God. And if we win and stay here, I will praise Him. And if we lose and have to move, I will praise Him. Either way....it seems like a win/win situation for me!

I've heard this song many times (its from the Casting Crowns), but hearing it after watching Facing the Giants tonight, really made me think about the words in a whole new perspective. Will you take a minute and read them?? If you are having any fears or worries right now, put into God's hands...I want THE KIND OF FAITH IT TAKES TO CLIMB OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE INTO THE UNKNOWN AND CHOOSE TO LISTEN TO THE VOICE OF TRUTH!

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
On to the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me Time and time again,
"Boy, You'll never win!" "You'll never win!"
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe The Voice of Truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me Time and time again,
"Boy, You'll never win!" "You'll never win!"
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me(calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe(I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe The Voice of Truth
I will listen and believe I will listen and believe The Voice of Truth
I will listen and believe Cause Jesus you are the Voice of Truth
And I will listen to you you are

I am struggling.........

I have been struggling for about a week now. A week ago "a friend" told me she had signed up to be ordained as a minister online in about 5 minutes. No education, no belief in God, nothing. I was appalled, what kind of place would allow this? I looked it up and I see why they do it...they don't have beliefs, they simply believe all people should be able to minister rather they are pagan, wiccan, or anything. WOW.

The next morning, she told me she had been saved during the night. That she asked for it and she received it. I was thrilled...I have been talking to her about Jesus for a long time and she always questioned everything....so I was thrilled...and asked her when she would be giving up the "cult" ministry ordination. She informed me that she wouldn't that she felt it would help her at some point in the future, that it could be used for good. I told her there was no way good could come out of being a minister in that manner....

She is asking me questions, and I am giving her information from the Bible. If I don't know something, I go to trusted people in my church and at my job to get the answer and where it can be found in the Bible...and I give it to her....only to have her turn around to her brother in law, who completely twists the scripture into crazy interpretations. I feel that I am being pulled into their web of lies and deceit and I finally have asked her to stop talking to me about it, asking me questions. I don't want to lose my sould because I am a part of this madness. I feel bad that I did this, but I feel good for me. I want to help people, but I need to help me! I want to help her, but I have to protect me! Usually I am not so selfish and only talking/caring about ME ME ME...however, this isn't normal everyday stuff....this is my eternal life we are talking about. On Friday I fell horrible, today I feel much better, but I am still struggling, wondering if I only knew more about the God's word if I could have helped her and not have given up on her.

I. AM. STRUGGLING. but I am looking towards Heaven!

I Am a 'Kept ' Woman?

I Am a 'Kept ' Woman?

You see, there were a few times when I thought I would lose my mind, But GOD kept me sane. (Isa. 26:3)

There were times when I thought I could go no longer, But the LORD kept me moving. (Gen 28:15)

At times, I've wanted to lash out at those whom I felt had done me wrong, But the LORD kept my mouth shut.. (Psa. 13)

Sometimes, I think the money just isn't enough, But GOD has helped me to keep the lights on, the water on, the car paid, the house paid, etc.., (Matt. 6:25 -34)

When I thought I would fall, HE kept me up. When I thought I was weak, HE kept me strong! (I Pet. 5:7, Matt. 11:28-30)

I could go on and on and on, but I'm sure you hear me! I'm blessed to be 'kept ' Do you know a 'kept ' woman? If so pass it on to her to let her know she is 'Kept ' I'm "Kept" by the Love and Grace of God

The U in Jesus

THE U IN JESUS Before U were thought of or time had begun, God stuck U in the name of His Son. And each time U pray, you'll see it's true, You can't spell out JesUs and not include U. You're a pretty big part of His wonderful name, For U, He was born; that's why He came. And His great love for U is the reason He died. It even takes U to spell crUcified. Isn't it thrilling and splendidly grand He rose from the dead, with U in His plan? The stones split away, the gold trUmpet blew, and this word resUrrection is spelled with a U. When JesUs left earth at His upward ascension, He felt there was one thing He just had to mention. 'Go into the world and tell them it's true That I love them all - Just like I love U.' So many great people are spelled with a U, Don't they have a right to know JesUs too? It all depends now on what U will do, He'd like them to know, But it all starts with U. Will YOU pass it on. When Jesus died on the cross he was thinking of you!

Rules for God for 2009

Rules for God for 2009

1. Wake Up!! Decide to have a good day. "Today is the day the Lord hath made; let us rejoice and be glad in it" Psalms 118:24

2. Dress Up!! The best way to dress up is to put on a smile. A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at outward appearance; but the Lord looks at the heart." I Samuel 16:7

3. Shut Up!! Say nice things and learn to listen. God gave us two ears and one mouth, so He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking. "He who guards his lips guards his soul." Proverbs 13:3

4. Stand Up!!... For what you believe in. Stand for something or you will fall for anything.. "Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good..." Galatians 6:9-10

5. Look Up!!... To the Lord. "I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

6. Reach Up!!... For something higher. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, And He will direct your path." Proverbs 3:5-6

7. Lift Up!!... Your Prayers. "Do not worry about anything; Instead PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING." Philippians 4:6

TO MY SISTERS IN THE LORD.....

TO MY SISTERS IN THE LORD.....

There comes a time in every woman's life when she has to take a close look at herself. Not at her circumstance, not at what she did, not how unfair life is, or not at whom made you do it. She has to just look at herself in all her glory and imperfection.
Have you ever admired a woman who has been through changes in her life? Or have you made up in your mind that she is just messed up. Before you make this mistake, take a closer look. A woman who has endured the most unusual life is someoneof wisdom, someone who has been chosen by God to go through things that have made her stronger! . Think of all the great women in the Bible: MaryMagdalene, Ruth and Naomi, the woman with an issue of blood flow, andEsther, to name a few. Mary was a prostitute, a very uneasy woman. But by the time Jesus was done with her, she was His closest follower. Esther was unfortunate in marrying an abusive man, but by the time God was done with her, she had married one of the wealthiest men in the land. Women are so quick to beat the next one down instead of trying to hold her up. Before you wonder, "What's up with her?" ask yourself,"What's up with me?"That woman could be my mother, sister, aunt, in-law, stepmother, niece, grandmother, great-grandmother, neighbor, friend, or co-worker, etc. That woman could be me. Women are the carriers of life, not the channels of death. Let's build and encourage each other, as did Ruth and Naomi. Pass this to all the women in your life. Encourage and Love, Forgive and Forget, and trust that the woman that receives this will be touched in some way.
I Love you all!

A few New Pictures from 2009

JEREMY SHOWING OFF HIS 100 DAY OF SCHOOL CRAFTS

JAMES AND RANDALL AT BIBLE QUIZZING

JEREMY PLAYING BASKETBALL

JC AND I HAVE FINALLY COMPLETED BABY STEP 1 (YAY)

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT SNOWED! SO PRETTY!

A little bit of reflecting

I love Blogger! I love the people I am meeting and following! I love God for bringing me to this place! I have Myspace and Facebook, but it's not the same as the Blogger Family I have joined. On Myspace, there is some pretty BAD stuff going on. People discuss their "bad" relationships just as much as the good, if not more. But I keep it because I want to monitor who my kids talk to and what they are saying and doing. On Facebook, I just started using it more because practically half of my church is on there. I see it as a place to just keep in touch.

But Blogger...I get consumed. I have MANY blogs saved as Favorites and every morning, I sit down and go down the list. There was a time when I was just reading one and if they didn't make an update, I would be sad, especially if it last for more than a day or two...but now there are so many, that one or two days is not so bad. I am learning so much about God's love, kindness, patience, and sovereignty. This must be the reason I have been called to read these blogs, because I don't fit in with any of the groups. I haven't adopted a child, or had a sick baby, or lost a child, but I feel connected in some way to all of them. Most days, I cry for a baby who has been lost, or a set back while in the hospital, or in happiness when good news comes back. I cry! I don't know any of these wonderful people in the flesh, but I know their hearts and isn't that all that really matters anyway?

The reflecting part comes in when a baby passes away. These parents are so strong and so steadfast in their faith of Jesus Christ. They may question WHY ME every now and then but it doesn't consume them, they know that there is a plan for everything and that one day they will meet up with their baby again....and I know this true....BUT....I'm not sure how strong my faith is. I've never been in that situation and I pray I don't have to be, but I also pray that if I do have to go through something that I wouldn't lose my faith. Maybe that is why I keep coming back even when my heart breaks and I cry and cry and cry, and don't have anybody to call and talk me through it. Nobody would understand! Nobody would care! EXCEPT GOD! He does care and He understands, and I want to talk to Him and hear from Him and know Him more each day. And I want to know what He wants me to do for Him in my lifetime. How can I affect so many and bring people to Him like Blogger is doing? There is a movement going on and Satan can't stop it! There are people out there who are doing everything in their power to get the good news of Jesus Christ into every home, even if it means bearing their very sould over their hurts and losses. I want to have a meaning, a purpose, a reason! I want to do something and I don't know what. So for now, I will pray. I will pray that I can realize my potential and won't be scared to go for it! And I will keep going back to each and every post day in and day out, even when it hurts, because each hurt they go through, I learn something. Each day I learn about God's love, kindness, patience, and sovereignty.

With all of that being said, I have deleted one of my blogs and created a new one. The one I deleted was titled "Letters to my Parents...the Road to Forgiveness". I started that blog a few months ago as a way to tell my parents how they hurt me (without actually telling them to their face), and also as a way to try to put the past in the past and move on with my future. I left it private because the facts that I mentioned are not known to anybody else and could effect many lives. I don't want that and so it was just for me! To rant, to rave! But I wrote several posts and it didn't truly make me feel better. I haven't opened it up in more than 2 or 3 months and even today when I deleted it, I just deleted it. I didn't want to read them and remember all over again. I just wanted it to be gone. And so it is! It is gone!

The new one I created, is something I saw on another Blogger and I thought it would be fun and actually push me to get on here more often. It is Project 365, where I will take and upload one picture everyday for one year. Starting today, February 11th and ending next year on this same date! Can I do it? I don't know, but I want to try. I want to do this FOR ME. For now....I'm going to get moving, but I hope to post more often. I say this alot though, so I FORGIVE myself if I don't.

It's been awhile!!

Baby TJ, Earvin, Randall, Jack, Aulbrey, Madison, Jeremy, James, and Robbie in front of Kim's Christmas tree.

Cousin Chris, Randall, James, Uncle Johnny, and Jeremy when we went for a Christmas visit.

Cousin Billy, Randall, Granpa George (or as the boys say, Grandpa with Cuddles), Jeremy, and James on Grandpa's sofa over Christmas break. If you are reading this, please pray for JC's dad. He has a bad heart, and JC is really thinking this visit might be his last to see him. I pray that it wasn't, but only God knows!

By the time I got it in gear to go and buy a Gingerbread House from the store, they were sold out. SOLD OUT??? How does that happen? The week before, they had ALOT. Anyway, we found this gingerbread TREE at AC Moore and got that, so it was OK.

Just an odd shot of Jeremy going out to play football with his brothers. It was very cold that day (NOT LIKE IT IS TODAY), but Jeremy came in and asked if he could wear my scarf...I couldn't help snapping a shot of him...can you say first girlfriend blackmail picture?? LOL J/K

I seem to go in spurts these days. I wish I could be more like the women who write their blogs pretty much everyday, I guess I just feel my life isn't that interesting. We seem to always be on the go...take for instance today. My oldest two will be in school until 3:30 and from 3:30 to 4:30, they attend a bible study at the school (I was very shocked and PLEASED when this offer came home), my husband will pick them up at 4:30 on his way home from work. When I get off at 5:30, I will make dinner, then they will go to their basketball practice from 7 to 8. From there I will take them straight to the church so they can attend an all-nighter (where it is rumored there will be no sleep). I will have to be at the church tomorrow at 6am to pick them up. I will bring them back so they can sleep for awhile and then take my youngest to his game at 8:45 (we have to be there at 8:15). After that, I will need to grab a few groceries, then the boys have their game at 4pm (will have to be there at 3:30). SUNDAY, JC and I are greeters at church, so we will have to be there for the early service and the beginning of the late service at least (last time we stayed for both, but we will see). After we get home and get some lunch, the two oldest boys have to be back at the church at 1:30 for the AWANA games practice which lasts until 3:30, and then they have AWANA quizzing practice from 3:30 to 5:30. They will go straight from that practice to their Collision meeting in the main church which lasts until 7. At 6, Jeremy has to be at choir practice at the church and JC and I have a class. By 7 we should all be home. Thankfully, the boys are out of school on Monday and only go Tuesday for a full day and Wednesday for a half day, then they are off again Thursday and Friday, so hopefully, they will be able to get a little rest next week. It sounds like an awful lot, but they seem to be having so much fun and they are letting Jesus into their hearts more each day, so I don't want to stop them. The basketball association they are a part of this year is Christ based through another church here in town. It was free, which was why I chose it, but I love the fact that they start each game with the two teams standing in a circle holding hands and praying. Each practice is also stopped about half way through and a prayer is said.

I often wonder how it is that we landed here when we moved from Northern Virginia. I don't think it was a mistake. I believe that this is the plan that Jesus has laid out for us. We are where we need to be, so we can become who we need to be! We are children of God and we are so very blessed to have a wonderful church family to guide our paths.

JC and I have reserved a hotel for 2 nights in the Smoky Mountains in March. For the first time, we are going to have a little bit of a honeymoon. No kids! Just the two of us. March 16th is our anniversary and my mom is coming to take care of the kids for us. I am very excited and nervous all at the same time. We actually took a walk by ourselves last night and left the boys here playing play station. We don't do that very often and it actually felt nice. We walked at our pace, not theirs, and we were able to talk about our day to each other with no interruptions.

I am going to try to change my profile name, not sure if I will be able to, but thought it would be the best idea for security. I originally made this blog for a class back in 2005 or 2006 I think. I never thought it would lead me to find so many wonderful people who are sharing their lives with the world, making us a stronger united group of Christians....

I have attached a few pictures of stuff that has been going on since I last wrote. (see above)

The Resume of Jesus Christ

The Resume of Jesus ChristAddress: Ephesians 1:20 Phone: Romans 10:13Website: The Bible. Keywords: Christ, Lord, Savior and J esus
Hello. My name is Jesus -The Christ. Many call me Lord! I've sent you my resume because I'm seeking the top management position in your heart. Please consider my accomplishments as set forth in my resume. Qualifications · I founded the earth and established the heavens, (See Proverbs 3:19) · I formed man from the dust of the ground, (See Genesis 2:7) · I breathed into man the breath of life, (See Genesis 2:7) · I redeemed man from the curse of the law, (See Galatians 3:13) · The blessings of the Abrahamic Covenant comes upon your life through me, (See Galatians 3:14) Occupational Background · I've only had one employer, (See Luke 2:49). · I've never been tardy, absent, disobedient, slothful or disrespectful. · My employer has nothing but rave reviews for me, (See Matthew 3:15-17) Skills Work Experiences · Some of my skills and work experiences include: empowering the poor to be poor no more, healing the brokenhearted, setting the captives free, healing the sick, restoring sight to the blind and setting at liberty them that are bruised, (See Luke 4:18). · I am a Wonderful Counselor, (See Isaiah 9:6). People who listen to me shall dwell safely and shall not fear evil, (See Proverbs 1:33). · Most importantly, I have the authority, ability and power to cleanse you of your sins, (See I John 1:7-9) Educational Background · I encompass the entire breadth and length of knowledge, wisdom and understanding, (See Proverbs 2:6). · In me are hid all of the treasures of wisdom and knowledge, (See Colossians 2:3). · My Word is so powerful; it has been described as being a lamp unto your feet and a light unto your path, (See Psalms 119:105). · I can even tell you all of the secrets of your heart, (See Psalms 44:21). Major Accomplishments · I was an active participant in the greatest Summit Meeting of all times, (See Genesis 1:26). · I laid down my life so that you may live, (See II Corinthians 5:15). · I defeated the archenemy of God and mankind and made a show of them openly, (See Colossians 2:15). · I've miraculously fed the poor, healed the sick and raised the dead! · There are many more major accomplishments, too many to mention here. You can read them on my website, which is located at: www dot - the BIBLE. You don't need an Internet connection or computer to access my website. References · Believers and followers worldwide will testify to my divine healings, salvation, deliverance, miracles, restoration and supernatural guidance In SummationNow that you've read=2 0my resume, I'm confident that I'm the only candidate uniquely qualified to fill this vital position in your heart. In summation, I will properly direct your paths, (See Proverbs 3:5-6), and lead you into everlasting life, (See John 6:47). When can I start? Time is of the essence, (See Hebrews 3:15). Send this resume to everyone you know, you never know who may have an opening! Thanks for your help and may God bless you!

Why Jesus is better than Santa!

Santa lives at the North Pole ... JESUS is everywhere.
Santa rides in a sleigh ... JESUS rides on the wind and walks on the water.
Santa comes but once a year ... JESUS is an ever present help.
Santa fills your stockings with goodies ... JESUS supplies all your needs.
Santa comes down your chimney uninvited ... JESUS stands at your door and knocks, and then enters your heart when invited.
You have to wait in line to see Santa ... JESUS is as close as the mention of His name.
Santa lets you sit on his lap ... JESUS lets you rest in His arms.
Santa doesn't know your name, all he can say is "Hi little boy or girl, what's your name?" ...JESUS knew our name before we were born...Not only does He know our name,He knows our address too.He knows our history and future and He even knows how many hairs are on our heads.
Santa has a belly like a bowl full of jelly ...JESUS has a heart full of love
All Santa can offer is HO HO HO ...JESUS offers health, help and hope.
Santa says "You better not cry" ...JESUS says "Cast all your cares on me for I care for you." Santa's little helpers make toys ...JESUS makes new life, mends wounded hearts,repairs broken homes and builds mansions.
Santa may make you chuckle but ...JESUS gives you joy that is your strength.
While Santa puts gifts under your tree ...JESUS became our gift and died on a tree....The cross.

Put Christ Back In Christmas...Jesus Is Still The Reason For The Season!

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16

2 pairs of shoes for $5.00

OK - I hope I got your attention with my subject. I hope you opened this blog and read it all! I hope you can help this wonderful cause. I found this information on one of the blogs I follow, and I thought it was a great idea!

Has anybody been outside barefoot lately. I can tell you....it hurts. It is so cold, it feels like walking on razor blades. Can you imagine NEVER having a pair of shoes to wear? There are so many children in need of shoes and the link below will allow you buy 2 pairs for $5. I know we are all struggling right now financially, but I am sure we can all look under sofa cushions, in our piggy banks, and in our car and come up with $5. And it would be for such a great cause! Please consider doing this in the name of Jesus Christ. Let this small deed be lifted up! You will be a better person for it!

http://www.50000shoes.com/

If you want to respond to me and let me know if you did this and how many shoes you provided to needy children, please reply either by email or comment and I will keep track and let everybody know.

Have a safe and happy week!

Thankful Thursday!

I've never done this before....but I thought I would give it a shot today.

I am thankful for the sunshine and warmth today after two VERY cold days.
I am thankful for being given the opportunity to take care of 3 of God's precious children...yes I know they are His...I may claim them as mine, but I know He has just loaned them to me!
I am thankful for our church that is playing such a big role in this community in bringing more and more people to Jesus Christ.
I am thankful that the church has grabbed ahold of my husband and is turning his life around, only in God's name.
I am thankful that my kids are so excited about learning about Jesus
I am thankful for our jobs that allows us to get by (we may struggle every month), but atleast we have jobs, when so many people don't.
I am thankful for the very breath I breath, my eyes that see, my mouth that speaks, my ears that hear, my heart that loves.
I am thankful to have found so many wonderful blogging "friends" that have given me many hours of smiles, tears, and hope.
I am thankful that no matter what, God is in control. Today...I am just THANKFUL!

(Now on a side note, I had this on my TO DO list as a friend on Myspace did this the other day, and I thought it was a great way to share a smile):

10 Things that make me smile (in no particular order):

1. Listening to my children laughing
2. A hug from JC and the boys
3. Reading blogs from people who give me hope and leave me in awe of their love and devotion to God
4. The cat waking me up every morning by head butting me (he thinks I should wake up with the first ring of the alarm)
5. Being at the church (especially during the singing)
6. Seeing an elderly person
7. Helping somebody in need
8. Watching the puppy "prance" while walking with me on the leash
9. Snuggling in bed with JC and Jeremy (making a squashed Jeremy sandwich)
10. Listening to 91.9 Christian music with a touch of love

Hope you all have a Blessed Day!

Having God in my Life since forever and FEELING Him in It...what a difference??

I have known God since I was a baby. Probably not as CLOSE and PERSONAL as many, but I have always known Him, believed Him, and loved Him....sometimes I strayed away, but He was always there....YESTERDAY though, I truly believed He stood behind me in line at Wal-mart and orchestrated a moment in my life that showed me He is truly with me.

I had to get a few things that we were running short on so I went to Wal-Mart during my lunch hour. I had all ready been to get my allergy shot and stopped at a Habitat Store to look for a bunk bed, so I knew I only had a bit of time. I wasn't rushing, but I did have a time limit. I decided to go through the Self-CheckOut....not always the smartest decision since they usually don't work and the lines weren't outrageously long....Normally I would have just hit the normal cashiers, so I wasn't sure why I chose this lane....but I did! So I ring up all of my stuff, run my debit card, sign the signature pad, and start waiting for my receipt. Nothing happened (on the receipt tape anyway)....on the computer screen it said there was an error and it was going to shut down. I called the girl over and she started pushing buttons....which I don't think she had any clue about. When that didn't work, she asked another cashier to call the CSM down, and since I used to work there, I knew her. It took her a few minutes for her to get there (and honestly by this point, I would have been irritated about having to wait)....but I never felt irritation the whole time I waited for her. I had a perfectly pleasant conversation with the cashier about my sister's baby and waited a little bit more. When the CSM got there she said to come with her as she would have to have them pull a receipt from the cash office. NO PROBLEM. I followed her and standing in line at Customer Service was Pastor Bubba's wife.....this is where the orchestrated plan comes in....

I have never met her, I have only seen her once. My husband has talked to Bubba on a few occasions and this man is truly a God-sent person who is helping my husband in so many ways. Bubba scares me at time when he preaches because he is very loud and very animated. He is a great pastor and JC adores him. About a week before the Wal-mart trip took place, I had overheard (can kind of say I was eavesdropping) on the class Bubba and his wife were leading and I heard her talking about her dad and her step sister and issues she had in the past. I cried as I listened because she spoke to my heart. She opened feelings that I had locked inside. She made me see that I am not the only person who is struggling. She made me want to know Jesus more! All of that in just a few short sentences overheard! And then I am in Wal-Mart and I just walked up to her and introduced myself (that is totally not me). I told her who I was and she knew from Bubba talking about JC. And we talked. Probably it 10 maybe 15 minutes, but I wasn't counting seconds. I wasn't caring if they ever came out of the cash office. She was talking to me about her issues that were also my issues....who else but God could have orchestrated that exact moment in time. Who else but God could have make a computer malfunction for no apparent reason (because they were able to print my receipt finally in the cash office). Who else but God....and as I walked to my car yesterday with my head held high and the biggest smile on my face in a LONG time, I knew that He was with me...I know He is always with me, but I really felt Him! How amazing!

A few pictures from Halloween and Jeremy's First Field Trip

James and Randall had decided they did NOT want to do Trick or Treating again....but this year since Jeremy wanted to go bad, we agreed to leave them home and take Jeremy. At the LAST minute both James and Randall decided they wanted to go...I mean the very last minute....so Randall took one of his daddy's suits and James worse his Camo pants and jacket and we called it a night....It turned out pretty good!

On November 6th, Jeremy and I went on his very FIRST bus ride and Field Trip. We had a lot of fun...I have an extreme appreciation for teachers now!!!

Pray 7x7

I ran across a blog just by chance yesterday....well I guess it was God's plan really. Nothing in our life is really by chance. This blog is the most honest, heartfelt, spiritual thing I have ever read. This family is amazing. I spent several hours yesterday reading their story and cried almost the whole time. Not only is she trying to deal with her pain, she is trying to help families all over the world who have experienced the loss of a child. I never knew that October 15th is National Day of Remembrance for pregnancy and infant loss. It's been about 13 years since I lost our first pregnancy. It was May of 1995. I had only been out of high school for almost a year. My husband and I weren't married and quite frankly we were going through a very rough patch and were barely even talking by the time I miscarried at 14 weeks. I found out at 12 weeks that the sac was empty. Nothing was growing in there and they said I would miscarry within 2 weeks. I don't know if it was because I didn't believe them or because I refuse to consider that possibility, but I refused to listen to them when they said I should be scheduled to have a D&C. To me that was abortion. I couldn't do it so I refused. It caused me much pain about 10 days later, but it felt better mentall to me. I have since had 3 beautiful children, but I still think about that baby. My husband helped me soothe me when he said he felt that God had given us our baby back when he blessed us with twins in 1997. The only problem I have is wondering....because I want to believe that I will meet that baby in Heaven one day, but since nothing was growing inside of me, I wonder......I guess all I can continue to do is look up towards Heaven and find out when I get there!

Anyway, I got way off track with my thoughts there....this blog is a place I want to go to everyday. I feel blessed to be able to share their life with them and to get some helpful hints on how to live in faith the way this family does. Like the Praying for your children 7 times every day for 7 days. Check out this button below.



I hope you all have a great weekend!
Bobbie

Wordless Wednesday

I've been Tagged...and I don't know what to do...but here goes!

Well, I don't know many people on Blogger (if you go to my Myspace page - I know a bunch), so I have never done this before, but I'd like to get to know some people more, so it looks like fun. Let's see what I can come up with:


7 Random/Weird facts about me (most of these are just random - I don't think I have very many WEIRD facts):


1. I started playing softball when I was 5 and played through my senior year of highschool

2. I love Brussel Sprouts (that's weird isn't it - LOL?)

3. I also love to write. In Middle school I started writing poems in English class and never stopped until I graduated. Most of my poems were about heartbreak and after I met my husband when I was 18, I couldn't seem to write anymore...hopefully that is a good thing! Eventually I would like to write a children's book.

4. I love family and family gatherings. In 2008, I planned 2 family reunions (1 on my dad's side and 1 on my mom's side - 1 in VA and 1 in FL) and a cousin's gathering. These gatherings started the year my Grandma died because we got tired of only seeing each other at funerals and they are alot of fun.

5. I am currently working full time from home, full time as a mom, and taking classes online part time to get my Bachelors in Business Administration.

6. In my spare time (if I have any) I like to work on Scrapbooking and genealogy (both of which I am way far behind on)

7. I believe I belong to the greatest church in NC or in the whole U.S.A. The people there love Jesus and love people. I love it because I love Jesus and I love people too. It's a great fit.


The people I am going to tag are: (and like I said I don't really know many people on here, so I hope you are all OK with me doing this and I think it says you can do it if you have time, and i know a bunch of you are busy, so please don't feel compelled to tag somebody else if you are).

Emily at The Wate for Kate
Lisa at One Home Many Hearts
Momofone more at Mom of One More
3peanuts at 3 Peanuts
Nate at CF Husband
Tina at Journey to Zach and Luke
Kristi at Fireworks and Fireflies


I hope I have done this right and I hope everybody has a great day!

Cell phone vs. The Bible

I usually get anywhere from 20 to 2000 emails on any given day between the 3 email addresses I use....my personal, my work, and the one I use when joining stuff online.....For the most part, most of them are tossed without ever opening. Some are looked at and tossed because although I might get a laugh at it, I don't want to spread it any further....but every so often I get some that really touch my heart. The poem I posted a couple days ago was one....and here is another...this is so true!!!

Ever wonder what would happen if we treated our
Bible like we treated our cell phone?
What if we carried it around in our purses or pockets?
What if we flipped through it several time a day?
What if we turned back to go get it if we forgot it?
What if we used it to receive messages from the text?
What if we treated it like we couldn't live without it?
What if we gave it to kids as gifts?
What if we used it when we traveled?
What if we used it in case of emergency?
This is something to make you go....hmm...where is my Bible?
Oh, and one more thing.
Unlike our cell phone, we don't have to worry about our Bible
being disconnected because Jesus already paid the bill.
And no dropped calls!
Makes you stop and think 'where are my priorities?

Trust in the Lord and *ASAP (Always Say A Prayer)
Have a blessed and wonderful day!

A Few Updates

On Thursday night, JC's birthday, we went to Lynn and Kenny's house for his birthday dinner. We had told them we would be going out to On The Border, but they wanted to save us money, so we went there instead and she made tacos and chili and TWO cakes...WOW. We have met some awesome, awesome people from our church. Here are a few pics of that night. We had a lot of fun playing Guesstures...LOL


JC in the van on the way to Lynne and Kenny's house

The other team during Guesstures...they beat us bad! LOL

The kids eating at the dinner table.

We had a really good time and on Friday afternoon JC left to go to the Men's Retreat. The boys and I went over to Jessica's house and while they played and watched the Hulk, Jessica and I scrapbooked and watched 27 Dresses. It was cute. I didn't get much done scrapbook wise...but it was fun just the same. On Saturday morning, the boys and I cleaned the house and then we all went to see High School Musical 3. The theatre was packed. I read online yesterday that sales for the movie topped 42 million...WOW. Good thing we had gift cards...LOL. The boys were very happy to see that JC was home when we got back. Yesterday the boys played outside after church while I did Homework....thats about it.