Well, just like I always, I say I will try to do better with blogging...but life happens. I picked up a second job spraying the schools for COVID back in September and worked through December.
Looking back, I am not sure how I did it. It was good for me physically and financially, but mentally it was draining. The guy I worked for was very unethical and the two guys that were on my team made be feel horrible at the end....but none of them define me. After he tried to cheat on MY taxes, I put in my notice. I was done....and I think it was all in God's timing.
JC's dad has been sick for many years. We brought them down in 2017 to live near us in Concord with the hopes that he could become more independent and be able to take better care of himself. Unfortunately that didn't happen as he never wanted to get dressed and go anywhere. He probably only used his Scooter a handful of times. Back in June, he stopped getting off of the couch. I don't think I realized how bad it was because I was so busy internalizing the issues we were facing. By October, he hadn't gotten up in almost 5 months and he couldn't do anything to care for himself. He was taken to first the hospital and then to a nursing home. They told me they were going to stop his P.T. because he wasn't getting any better but that he could continue to live in the nursing home for his wound care. About that time, JC's mom's knee issues got worse and an ambulance was called. She was taken to the hospital and then to a different nursing home. Neither of them wanted to be in there and Kathy felt like she could care for him if they could come home.
The week before Christmas, was my vacation week, so I set in motion a plan to get them both home for Christmas. He had to come home on what I thought was palliative care but was truly Hospice Care. She got home roughly the same time he did, but things were not good. He could not do anything for himself, even so much as turning himself over, and she couldn't even stand for more than a minute or two. The Hospice nurse deemed it unsafe for him to stay at home. Kathy refused the offer to go back into the nursing home until a more permanent situation could be found. George was taken to the Hospice House in Kannapolis, which was the best place he was at throughout this whole ordeal. We took Kathy over to visit him and they ate Christmas supper together. The next day, Kathy called the paramedics again and went back to the hospital saying she couldn't care for herself.
Through much work and discussions, with Social Security, Medicaid, Medicare, Hospice, Nursing Homes, assisted living, etc....we got her into another nursing home closer to our house and started the process to get George into the same one temporarily together. There is so much more I could write about the endless paperwork, applications, phone calls, but there isn't enough time for that.
Dawn and Billy came down on the 13th of January to help us clean out their apartment. On the 14th, JC, Billy, and Dawn visited with George at the Hospice House. This is important for several reasons, but mainly because during this time of COVID, there are is a no visitation policy at the nursing homes. I had asked that they push back his date of discharge 2 days so he could see his grandson whom he hadn't seen in 3 years. They allowed it. This would be the final time for him to see his daughter and son and the grandson that he raised. They spent an hour or more with him and then he was transferred to the nursing home in Salisbury and was sharing a room with Kathy.
They were very upset with us about the amount of stuff we were getting rid of. The last time I talked to him that Friday night, I was very stern with him. I feel horrible, but I think I was at a breaking point by then. Plans were made and changed and changed again. It was the last conversation I ever had with him.
On Monday night, JC took Dawn home and Randall took Billy and Toby home. Gronk came to stay with us. Monday night Dawn called me in tears because George had called her and said he was getting a pain pill every hour because he was at end of life. She wanted to know if she needed to come back down. I told her I didn't think so because they had been telling me he was fine. She called the night nurse and she confirmed that all was good. On Tuesday morning, I talked to the NP who told me he was alert, eating, drinking, and from what she could tell he wasn't going to die anytime soon. I also spoke to the Hospice nurse to find out why they stopped giving him his insulin and one coumadin and if they were truly giving him a pain pill every hour. The nurse explained that they ordered morphine for every hour in case something happened suddenly during a time when a pharmacy wasn't opened. He wasn't receiving an oxy pill every hour which is what he thought. That was around 9-10am. The nurses gave him a bath, he ate half of his breakfast. I planned to call George Tuesday afternoon to ask him if he wanted me to remove him from Hospice care and let the doctors at the nursing home take over his care but that chance never came. JC was doing a window visit around 1pm. His mom got stuck trying to get in the bed and I had to call a nurse to come down and help her. About that time, their lunches were brought and they tried to wake George up to eat and he wasn't responding. JC called me again panicked yelling that he was dying, about that time, the director of nursing called me to tell me they thought he was about to pass. I told her JC was outside the window and asked if he could come in. She told me to have him go around to the front and they would have to do the COVID protocols. While he was getting robed, had his temperature taken, and a quick result COVID test, his father passed away. He was with his wife of 54 years. JC got there right after they called his time of death on January 19th at 1:40pm. I had to call Dawn to tell her. I had no car so Randall had to drive me over there. I had him drop me off and I was going to set on the bench until JC came out, but JC asked me to come in. For the first time since COVID started I had to take a COVID test, but I did it for him. We stayed in the room together for a couple of hours until they came to pick up his body. A lot of decisions were made and we had a Farewell at the crematory. Angela bought Taz and Bella up and Dawn came with Dave and her kids. all of the boys were there as well. When they all left on Friday, I crashed mentally and didn't do anything productive for several days. A good friend reminded me that when it is your time to go, it is your time and nothing I did would have changed that. It was just what I needed to hear.
It has been a long road. Kathy is now in an apartment right down the street from us. She is ineligible to receive assistance for living assistance because she makes too much now that she is eligible for his social security so we had no choice. Things have calmed down some and for that I am grateful but we still have a long way to go with her care. I will try to come back again soon, but for now here are a couple of pictures of George while he was in Hospice. Before and After his haircut/beard trim. They allowed us to bring somebody in to cut it and a friend got her cousin to come up for me...The last four pictures are the memorial lantern I made for Kathy.
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